Only a few days now and I’ll be all on my own. I’ve been waiting for this day for the last 18 years….well not really but being an empty nester at one time meant I would be free to go and do as I pleased…. a sense of freedom not felt since I was 24 [...]
Posts Tagged ‘abandonment’
THE TIMES ARE A CHANGING….
Posted in Hell If I Know Days...., tagged abandonment, chronic pain, courage and wisdom, emotional pain, empty nester, FEAR, fibro fog, Fibromyalgia, FMS, living, loss, lost loves, nature, outdoors, panic, sadness, survivor, truth on January 13, 2010 | 3 Comments »
Here I go again…. or not…
Posted in Hell If I Know Days...., tagged abandonment, blog, chronic illness, chronic pain, emotional pain, FEAR, fibro, Fibromyalgia, flare ups, FMS, Guilt, health, life, living, living with pain, loss, lost, lost loves, psoriatic arthritis, sleeplessness, spooners, starting over?, survivor, truth on November 9, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I so dislike having to start over again. I can find so many reasons not to start over. That’s part of the reason I don’t mind being single and have been looking forward to my last nestling flying the coup full-timeĀ at the start of the year. At last! No one to have to think about. [...]
I’M STILL WAITING……
Posted in Bad Days...., tagged abandonment, blog, chronic illness, chronic pain, emotional pain, FEAR, fibro, fibro fog, Fibromyalgia, flare ups, FMS, IBS, life, living, living with pain, loss, lost loves, painful skin, psoriatic arthritis, rainy days, sadness, sleeplessness, survivor, truth, weather on October 12, 2009 | 7 Comments »
I’m still telling myself that it will be OK but I don’t think it’s working. I still feel awful even when it’s not raining. My skin is hurting. I sleep very little and even when I do I don’t feel rested. I know this is just the way things are with fibro but that doesn’t [...]
Things Lost and Things Found in the Fibro Fog….. part 3
Posted in Hell If I Know Days...., tagged abandonment, blessings, blog, boundaries, chronic illness, chronic pain, church, emotional pain, FAITH, FEAR, fibro, Fibromyalgia, FMS, found, homeless, life, living, living with pain, long term disability insurance, loss, lost, pain medication discrimination, psoriatic arthritis, religion, sadness, serenity, shame, strength, survivor, truth on September 15, 2009 | 4 Comments »
This is going to be a rough one to do….and keeping it honest will be painful in many ways and the boundaries of just what has been lost and what has been found can become blurred ….. even now I pause and think about deleting this and doing something else….. a sure sign I really [...]
Another Night…… Then What….Another Day…?
Posted in Hell If I Know Days...., tagged abandonment, chronic illness, chronic pain, depression, emotional pain, fibro, fibro fog, Fibromyalgia, flare ups, FMS, life, living, loss, moments of joy, monsters with in, psoriatic arthritis, sadness, sleeplessness on September 12, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I lie here in bed with my laptop and look for the time and see it’s after five am….. still no sleep…. still pain….. my skin hurts and all the same old same old…. topped off with psoriatic arthritis hurting in my hands and knees …. just for good measure…. I guess this monster called [...]
