Lila Lost in the Fibro Fog.....

Fibro Hell…..

lilabyrd — Tue, 12 Apr 2011 04:41:10 +0000

Fibro Hell

So very sorry that it has been so long since my last posting. This one will be short. I have been living in fibro hell and I don’t know when I’ll be up to full posting…. there is so, so much I need to say but am too tired to even start and I know once I start it will all come pouring out of me and overwhelm me…. I’ll start to cry and won’t be able to breathe through my nose and that will make using my oxygen hard …not a good thing…don’t need any more dain bramage than I already have…if I start like I siad I’ll not be able to stop. The pain both physical and emotional is just too strong right now. So please forgive me and don’t give up on me as I will come back and do what I know I MUST do….get it all out of me and then move on and maybe what I’ve gone through once recorded might be of help to some one else, as that has to be the reason I am here and going through these trials…there must be a worthy reason for the suffering…it can’t be for nought…. I’ll be on my journy…my walk through hell and back. May you be at peace until our paths cross again…… Lila

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Random Ramblings From The Depths Of The Fibro Fog…

lilabyrd — Wed, 17 Nov 2010 10:25:40 +0000

"Seek and you will find." by Lila Byrd

“I knelt in the forest to pray for I was lost and alone.

My spirit swelled and I felt His light and I was found….” by Lila Byrd

Over the years I have lived with the jumble of mixed matched illness and symptoms, I have had to fight

one battle after the other to have the right treatments for me medically, emotionally and spiritually. I have

found that people can selflessly give an abundance of compassion, understanding and assistance. Those are

the times that I try to cherish and hold onto during the not so great other times, for there are others that are

not so kind and take pleasure in causing more pain. I try to keep those as far and few between as I can. It can

be sort of hard to do when that hard-nosed, judgemental and stinkin’ thinkin’ person is none other than …ME …

I’ve lived this way for so long and have my cycles of ups and downs. I’m sure others do too…. I’m not

special. I get all caught up in what ever is going on and lose myself…..get everything out of balance which

doesn’t take much when you live with chronic illness or a handful of them nasty little pests. I so love the

out-of-doors and any time I felt stressed that was where I would end up….I could be still and let the natural

world absorb me and I would drink it in….really I could lay down on the ground and look up and feel that

I was wrapped up in an embrace from all that was natural and growing. I could refill my spiritual cup. I

could cry out how lost or alone inside and feel, really feel that swelling in my chest and the tears would be

a comfort and not a sorrowful loss. I haven’t been able to feel that embrace in so long now due to my health.

I deeply feel that loss, but I know in my heart of hearts that I can wander in my fog and if I seek, truly seek

my cup will be refilled…..it’s just harder now but not impossable…..I’ll see the warm rays of heavenly lights

parting the fog…..if you too are lost in a fog looking for that beautiful ray of light know you are not alone…

keep in mind that the warm rays of light from above will comfort you until our paths cross again….. Lila

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JUST A BIT OF TWISTED FIBRO HUMOR…

lilabyrd — Tue, 05 Oct 2010 12:31:20 +0000

Gosh I just don’t know when I’ll start to feel any better.

I think this new medication regimen is part if not all the reason

I feel so run down. My hair is starting to come out and I cut my

hand while cutting up a lemon…. all I wanted was just a few cups

of hot tea with lemon to quiet my stomach down. Now that cut is

on the slow side to heal. I take another round of three doses 12 hours

apart in the am. I am starting to question taking a chemo drug to

treat of my autoimmune illnesses.

It looks like my itty bitty sarcastically silly kitties are having

an itty bit of fun at my expense…..yeah just laugh it up now….

later dem itty bitty fibro kitties just might want their ears a good

scratchin’ and then we’ll just see how funny they feel then!

I wish one and all of those out there with their own itty bitty

fibro kitty to pick them up and give ‘em a hug….. cause no

matter what their mood had been need a hug too and enjoy

their purrrrrringgg until our paths cross again…… Lila

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MAKING PEACE WITH THE FOG…..

lilabyrd — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 11:52:49 +0000

It seems like it has been forever since my last post and by looking

at my last post date I guess it has been forever! I have trudged through

the fibro fog until I felt so lost and worn down. Thinking what have I

got left to say and who really cares even if I did? I’m plain worn out!

And I can’t think straight and even if I did….wait….I think I already

said something like that about three or four times and deleted it….

blast, it must mean something so I’ll leave it in and maybe can move

on…..lol…. I’m more forgetful of late and this is causing a few

problems around home. Forgetting to pay a bill or paying one

twice….just not a good thing. Well at least not good for my budget.

The more stressed out I get over forgetting things, the more things

I mess up and others get mad at me or mad at myself.

I have had mood swings too! Boy say howdy have I ever been

having mood swings. From crying to being just out-and-out silly.

Issues about my younger son deploying to Afghanistan has weighed

heavy on me. I am so worried and have mixed feelings about

him going, but I am going to support him all the way. I know

he wants to show he cares about our country and the basic

human rights of all people, also to help those who need help

to keep those basic rights. I am proud of him and what he is

doing, but I’m still worried….. I don’t want him to worry about

me…..watching him leave is going to be much harder than

I thought. Once again, I find myself staring off into space

and lost my train of thought. My son saw that my TV was

starting to show the signs of its age and the next thing I

know he is walking in with a 42 inch flat-screen HD

plasma TV! Good gosh! Just what was he thinking?

But he said he didn’t want mine to go out and me be here a l

one and no TV…..and since he won’t be here for Christmas.

He won’t be here for his 20th birthday either. Lord I worry.

I could have written a dozen good posts since my last post…..

but I keep forgetting them! I have started on the new medication….

the chemo one….this may be part of my problem. I know that the

day of and the two days after I take the three dose treatment, I do

feel some nausea and very dry mouth. And I also feel so rundown

and run-over! The mood swings and the fog are also part of or

are compounded by the medication. It is too early to tell if

this new medication is going to help and I have to give it some

time to see what kind of impact it will have on me. I have

come to an understanding with myself…lol….yes, I did….

myself and I had a long talk….I need to remember what

is important and what isn’t. So, I can wander around in

the fog as long as I must….have patience with myself

and others….it doesn’t matter if I have anything to say

or not…..this is where I can be me…..and sometimes

wandering around in the fog can be beautiful….slows

you down a bit….gives you a chance to see the treasures

right there all around you. So what if I forget a few things….

well not the bills or budget…..so what if the dishes have to

wait another day. I am going to make peace with the fog

and enjoy the view!

Fall season is now here and for me I love this time of year.

I hope to enjoy myself the most I can and remember it too…lol….

I hope! Hang with me folks, I hope it isn’t going to be too bumpy

of a ride. So if you find yourself wandering in your very own

fog take time to stop and take a rest.

Look around for the beauty of that moment and if we

bump into each other sit with me by my foggy

little stream and relax a spell……watch the world go

by and draw strength from that beauty and be at

peace with all that is around you until our paths

cross again……. Lila

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THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM TO BE.

lilabyrd — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 12:00:18 +0000

: INDIAN LEAF BUTTERFLY

: INDIAN LEAF BUTTERFLY

Just like this butterfly things can look like one thing but really are not what they seem to be…..

In my last post I said I had a doctor appointment on Monday.

Well my knee started swelling again and I couldn’t make

it up the stairs to my full bath so that I could shower and

shampoo my hair. If I couldn’t make it up the inside

stairs that have a handrail, I knew that I would never

make it down the outside steps where there isn’t a handrail.

One more time I had to cancel a doctor’s appointment and I hate

having to cancel appointments as most do not understand why.

They think you are lazy, inconsiderate or don’t care about other people’s

time and that you think you are more important than everyone else.

I will be charged a $15.00 cancellation fee that will be added to

my co-pay of my new appointment which was Wednesday.

I did make it to that visit. I’m a little worried.

For the last few months we have treated my foot and knee

swelling and pain as gout. Now the doctor isn’t so sure. So more tests.

I don’t have the energy for more tests. They did the starting blood work

at that appointment, but I still have to go get x-rays of my knee and foot.

Also I just found out that my sister has throat and stomach cancer and

we have a strong family history of colon cancer. My doctor has been

thinking that my lower back and abdominal pain has been my FMS.

Now maybe not, maybe all isn’t what it seems to be. Maybe this is a

progression of my psoriatic arthritis that has now moved from my

hands into my foot and even more in my left knee {my right knee

has been found to have psoriatic arthritis}. Also it may now

be effecting my internal organs like kidneys or the pain and IBS

symptoms of FMS maybe masking cancer symptoms of the colon.

So off I will have to go to get a colonoscopy and just for good

measure the doctor is throwing in a mammogram…..I ask are they

having a special or something? Three for one or have two and

get a third one free? Oh yeah almost forgot, another option

I could have Lupus. I had a false positive for Lupus when

I was getting a workup that lead to my diagnosis of FMS. Either way

until we get all the lab work back and all the other tests completed

including those results, my doctor is starting me on a chemo drug

that will help to treat all the above possibilities. The drug’s

name is Methotrexate Sodium and I’ll have to take three doses twelve

hours a part one time a week. I will freely admit…..this scares me!

Having the blood work was no big deal for me but the

colonoscopy is a whole other critter and then waiting for all the

test results feels like an eternity. It isn’t just the fear of the invasive

tests them-self but I have family, that I have had to cut out of my life

due to their negative impact on my life, that work in the medical

facilities where the tests that I need might be performed. I have done my

best to keep my life private from them to avoid as much drama as I can.

I feel very vulnerable when it comes to these tests not just the physical

part but also by the medical information that could be viewed by

those I do not want to know anything about me. To make things

worse I used to work at the hospital where these tests are to be done.

Who wants the people they have worked with seeing them have

such invasive procedures done? I haven’t been around any of them

in the last ten years and what this illness has done to change the

way I look would just give them more to gossip about as this has

been their habit and part of why I have tried my best to keep them

out of my life. I do not need negativity like that around me.

For now I’ll try to not dwell on it and wait until every thing is

all set up and see just who will be doing what and where. Maybe things

will not be as bad as I think. Who knows maybe my fibro fog will kick

in and I won’t remember a thing! Hey! Stop laughing that’s not nice..lol..

it could happen. Well I’ll hope for the best and pray that the worst won’t

be a part of my future. Heck for that matter I will wish all of you the

best and pray you never see the worst and that joy will be your

companion until our paths again…… Lila

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IF THEN WERE NOW….

lilabyrd — Sun, 29 Aug 2010 11:12:29 +0000

.......would I have continued down this path of no choice?

Over the last few months I’ve had some of the most painful days that have lasted longer than I have ever

experienced. I have tried all the tricks in my book but often……nothing seems to help. Long, dark and quiet hours

pass and I find that the morphine and the break through pain medication brings little relief. I lay in bed desperately

seeking any position of comfort and finding none, I fight back the tears. I try my best not to cry…..not because I’m

brave…..I’m not….crying clogs up my nose and I can’t breathe through my oxygen tube that way…..see not brave,

I just need to breath as the feeling of suffocation is terrifying…..believe me I’ve been there before and I have a

healthy fear of that event. Instead, I find that I have clenched my fists to the point of bleeding palms. I’ll silently

cry shedding no tears, feeling only the sobs as they shake through out my body adding to my pain. I pray for relief

and beg for strength and sometimes, even after all these years, ask “Why?”. But do I really want an answer right

then? No, I know I don’t….. not then. All I really want is some relief and some soft calming inner comfort that

I get when I know I’m not alone…..just that soft gentle inner comfort from which my strength comes. But as I

have said things have been rough and my body, mind and soul are weary. I’ve not posted….too afraid. I said this

would be my place of truth. So I have put on my happy face. You know the one that smiles and jokes

around while on the phone or on-line with friends, more commonly known as “normal” people. Then back to my

world in the dark. I know things well get better somewhere down this path. All I need to do is make it there…. just

over this rough patch. Putting my feelings of pain and weakness into the written word is a difficult task for me,

but I am feeling a slight lifting of the burden I carry with me. I did say weakness didn’t I….hmm ….and burden…

deep down I still feel some shame for having failed to give and do all I could for my family…..every thing that

having Fibromyalgia has stolen from me and all those I have loved and cared about. I know I will make it through

this as I always do….maybe a little less from the wears and tears. I do wonder, if I had to start with this illness

at my current level of pain and all the other illnesses that FMS has brought with it, would I be able to travel down

this same path or would I have chosen to give up? I guess I’ll never know that for sure, but I’d hope my faith would

steady my steps and keep my focus on the goal up ahead and keep me from stumbling off my path. My faith teaches

that I am here because I chose to be here and all my trials are mine, custom-made and meant to mold me into what

I need to be…..so that when it is time to lay this weary body down I will be ready to move on…..

Monday I have to go to the doctor and I hope by then I will be able to get down the front steps. What I had

thought to be gout in my left knee may not be gout. My left foot has cleared up, but my knee hasn’t and the pain is

something different from what I’ve ever felt. I can not walk without crutches and that can be a problem with my

oxygen tubing becoming tangled up and then add the portable tank I’ll need to have with me…..I’m going to need

help and I hate asking for help. But I did ask for help and have not only one but also a back up…..now that’s a small

miracle for me.

I am going to post this even though I have gone back and forth about doing so. These are very personal feelings

and not meant to bring about comments of comfort or sympathy…I know my kindred spirits would do so with love…

but I simply want to share and if anyone else has been or is on this path…..you are never really alone…..

it’s just a rough patch…..sure to be more……but known just as before….. you will again…… so keep that comfort

in your heart until our paths cross again……. Lila

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AND THEN THERE ARE THE REALLY GOOD DAYS….

lilabyrd — Tue, 17 Aug 2010 11:14:17 +0000

ISN'T SHE SO CUTE!

: AND SHE CLEANS UP REAL WELL TOO!

I know, I have said that I have had to cut almost all of my extended family out of my life due to all of their drama.

I just don’t need it nor can my health tolerate all the dysfunctional mess. I have heard it said many times that you

can not pick your family, but I’m here to say yes you can. That is just what I have done. I have a group of people

around me that are my “adoptive family”…. no not in the legal way but family just the same. We don’t use terms

like “mother” or “sister” or such…… just “family”.

Now with that said I have great news! We got us a new baby! She is a beauty….. a real keeper…lol…. no

sending her back! Welcome little Miss Olivia Rachel all of 7 lbs and 5 oz and 18 inches long. She is perfect.

She cleaned up real well too. No one thought she could be any more perfect……oh then she smiled….. the clouds

parted, the rain stopped and the sun broke out and was sooo bright! Yes, this was a good day. I’m glad she picked

us to be her family. She’s gonna be trouble when she gets older. A real heart breaker. But way before then she’ll

have all of us around her perfect little finger…….. yes she will…. pray for us…..lol….and may you feel the joy

and love of your “family” until our paths cross again…….. Lila

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THE TRAVEL GNOME FAILED ME…. I forgive him but he still owes me.

lilabyrd — Wed, 11 Aug 2010 20:49:23 +0000

My inner itty bitty fibro kitty isn’t feeling very trusting right now as it seems that the travel gnome didn’t keep

up his end of the deal to keep the gout fairy entertained and away from our house. Yes, that gout fairy still has a

rather nasty disposition and must have gotten in through one of the upstairs windows because I have been keeping

my eye on all the downstairs windows, doors and even the fire-place. She slipped away from the travel gnome and

paid us a brief visit. Thank goodness I was only lightly napping and heard her evil chuckle as she tapped my left

foot. So engrossed was she that she never saw my supper sized gout fairy swatter coming! I knocked her half way a

cross the room and did that ever feel good! I highly recommend it to anyone that has a visit from the gout fairy. She

left in a huff and mumbling something about paybacks, to which I yelled at her as she was leaving that was just what

she got a nice dose of “payback” my style! I’m really, really gonna need to watch out. I still had a very sore left foot for a few

days. Not nearly as bad nor as long as before….. maybe the changes in my intake has helped to decrease the effects of the

gout flare up.

I’ve been keeping a record of what I’ve eaten and drank before a flare up, the severity, location and

duration. Then used only my pain medications and diet to try to decrease and clear up the symptoms especially eating the

foods that are supposed to breakdown the uric acid and there by clearing up the flare up. Dark chocolate seems to

help…..no really it does help….OK and it does help you to not care at least for the time while you are sooo into savoring this

scrumptious, smooth and creamy gift from the gods of all that is so good it has to be sinful……

Wow just had one of

those moments of looking off into space and thinking of chocolate and how it might be a cure for everything…lol…

I’m fighting the fog big time right now, but I really do need to complete this post!

Anyway like always one flare up

of any other illness also messes with fibro too. So I got the gout to clear up but my fibro has been doing the Texas two

step all over me and shows no sign of slowing down even to a Fox Trot. Oh and of course wouldn’t you know it my

youngest son got his orders to report for preparation for deployment to south Afghanistan for a year. He will be

spending time at three military forts to complete these preparations until he ships out in December. His first few weeks will be here so he will be able

to come home on pass sometimes. Knowing what is going on in that part of the world keeps this mom worried. I’m

proud of his commitment to serve our country but as a mom…..well you know I will worry and this is bad for fibro

as is most stress.

My inner itty bitty fibro kitty says if we can just keep that grumpy gout fairy away, other

things will be easier to deal with as not being able to walk and get about is really, really a royal pain anywhere she

touches. I hope the gout fairy or any of her relatives aren’t bugging any of you…..but just in case keep some dark

chocolate close at hand and maybe even try some as a preventive measure and then keep your fairy swatter ready

until our paths cross again…… Lila

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LET YOUR MEMORIES BE YOUR GUIDE….

lilabyrd — Fri, 23 Jul 2010 10:21:52 +0000

When you live a life with a chronic illness that also fills you with chronic pain there will be days when no amount of pain medication will seem to help because even your skin hurts and you wish that you could live in a nudist colony for the blind. There will be days when the stress of not being able to do even the simplest things for your self ……… like when the electric can opener won’t work and you can’t get that cheap tuna can open with the manual can opener because of your decreased fine motor skills and joint pain in your hands….so you say screw the tuna and go for the peanut butter…….. and then can’t open the jar! You start to wonder if the pissed off gout fairy thinks you are the one who messed with her mornings strawberries and couscous since you end up having to eat puffed wheat {glorified cardboard} and milk……. for dinner. You can’t focus enough to even follow the rules for “Wheel of Fortune” and sleep…….. well you don’t know it well enough for a relationship….. more like a one night stand.

So what do you do? I wish I could say I know the answer to make these problems disappear forever but I don’t. Although I have found something that helps. Just let your memories be your guide. I’m sure most of you have heard of progressive relaxation and guided visual imagery…… I’ve taken mine a little further. For me I don’t need anyone to guide me through the progression of muscle relaxation and breathing or to guide me through the imagery of my choosing. If you need help with that part you can check out most book stores in the self-help area or have a friend with a smooth steady voice to record the steps of relaxing your muscles from head to toe or toe to head which ever you prefer and to slow and relax your breathing. Pick one of your most pleasant memories and flesh it out with details that you can picture in your mind. Now this is where I go a step further.

If I want to use some of my memories centered around a river or stream I use everything I have on hand to make this as real as possible. I’ll have a CD playing sounds of the stream and woodlands {not the ones with music} and use a plug-in air freshener with pine or flower scent {what ever fits the setting and NO candles as you may fall asleep} then a small fan to help move the fragrance and replicate a slight breeze. Now you can even set things up for the beach and with an oscillating fan and a mister and ocean sounds CD make it feel like the ocean spray and breeze……. of course don’t forget to set up a fragrance too! I have an adjustable bed with a built-in massage {you can also use one of the electric massage mats with adjustable speeds} and can set up night-time on a sail boat. Use my ocean CD, fan and mist. Bed set on low massage and I have put glow in the dark stars over my bed {yes with the big and little dipper!} and my bed is a four-poster and has some netting over part of the head of the bed. All of this with the room darkened really works well to make me feel like I’m on a boat looking up at the stars! There is the thunder storms with tin roof CD and so many others that can really cover all the senses that can step up your relaxation.

Then all you have to do is walk your way through that most pleasant time by the cool river with the sun just starting to burn off the morning mist…. watch the bugs skim across the edge of the river and the big rainbow trout suddenly breaks the surface and swallows two of the unlucky bugs. Hope he is around later when I’m fishing but now just want to lay back on the smooth flat cool rock beside the river and look up at the beautiful trees…… it’s hard to tell were the trees stop and their reflection in the river begins….. off in the distance is the rapid tapping of a Hairy Woodpecker and the sweet calls of the Yellow-Rumped Warbler…… the air is crisp with a faint touch of redwoods and cedar…… I know soon some of the sunshine will make its way through the dense trees and it will be time to fish but until then I’ll just close my eyes and listen the birds and river…… and so on!

OK, if nature isn’t your thing that relaxes you and say some of your best memories are of maxing out the plastic at the mall . Then by all means record the sounds of your favorite mall, the smells of the food court and the scent of Italian leather shoes works . Go for it!

If you are not able to walk your way through a scenario and don’t know anyone who could record your guided imagery for you, then there are some good ones that you can buy at most book stores or online and can then pull together the other items to cover as many senses as you can. It helps me. It’s not a cure or fix all but it might be worth trying.

As for me……. I think I hear my name being whispered on the soft morning air……. hmm wait….. no….. oh yes it is cedar I smell…… yeah….. Know where I’m going. Maybe tomorrow I’ll go to the beach….. maybe there will be a storm coming in off the ocean. That can be nice too. I hope you don’t need to try this but try it out for a mini mental vacation and enjoy your self until our paths cross again………. Lila

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“One Lovely Blog Award”

lilabyrd — Thu, 08 Jul 2010 12:33:27 +0000

It has now been well over a week since this award was given to me by Jolene. She too was given this award for her blog here at wordpress http://www.gracefulagony.wordpress.com . If you haven’t found her blog by now please do check it out and I’m sure you will enjoy her posts as much as I do! I confess I have been more of a “lurker” than a poster on other’s blogs…..so if your stats are up but no replies are found…..lol….it most likely was me lurking again. I know you are smiling……admit it you do it too! But back to this fine award before I totally forget what I’m doing….oh yes….Jolene thank you so very much for thinking about me and my blog…..it really does mean a lot to me that someone else enjoys what I post or finds it helpful in any way. I have said this before but will say it again….I started this blog just thinking it was just for me to be me and let it all hang out…..a safe place to let it all out….good, bad and the ugly too. Then someone read….didn’t post….OK lurked….and it scared me…..could I really do this because it seems someone has been reading…..OMG!……deep breath and just go with it…..be real just like I planed and wait and see….now over the passage of some time and more have found their way here…slowly….and that’s just fine…..I have found it means more to me when I share with others and in some way give support to the rest of us and our friends and families with chronic illnesses….so yes, Jolene thank you! And to everyone else that has enjoyed, laughed {yes in the closet lol counts too….silly!} and cried and prayed along with me…..thank you!

I had to put this off for the last week or so as the gout fairy paid me a nasty visit just after Jolene gave this to me…..doesn’t it always happen this way……I thought I could still post but the heavy pain meds and fogginess don’t mix with posting in any understandable language…lol….believe me I tried….didn’t work….trust me. I’m better now.

Now comes the best part of receiving this award….. I get to spread my wings and share this award with some of the other blogs I’ve newly found…..and yes lurked around some…..so you might be surprised in a nice way today! Here is my list of the others that I am sharing this award with and please go and check out their blogs. I am sure you will find some new blogs to enjoy as much as I have and I have chosen a very nice mix from serious to down right funny stuff but we all have illnesses in common and a lot to share with each other in our own humble way! So bless every one of you and a special shout out to Dave….I’ve been lurking Dave and as a man having to cope with chronic illness it can’t be easy and you are not alone…..really none of us are…..NOT ANY MORE….enjoy!

1} MY CFS LIFE by hiddenlives http://www.mycfslife.wordpress.com

2} ALMOST NORMAL by jeneli http://www.jeneli.wordpress.com

3} a walk through the darkness of chronic pain and depression by Dave http://www.painprime.wordpress.com

4} Walking With Peter http://www.walkingwithpeter.wordpress.com

5} twopercentmind blog {Fibro} http://www.twopercentmind.wordpress.com

6} bioluminescent mental shrapnel http://www.flashfactor.wordpress.com

7} Notes Along the Path http://www.notesalongthepath.wordpress.com

8} Shira’s Fbro Fun by Shira http://www.myfibrofun.wordpress.com

9} FIBROGURL by Fibrogurl http://www.fibrogurl.wordpress.com

10} Letting Myself Go by tammy renee http://www.lettingmyselfgo.wordpress.com

11} Una Vita Bella http://www.unavitabella.wordpress.com

12} Fibromyalgia Blog http://www.fibro2010.wordpress.com

13} WENDY USUALLY WANDERS by Wendy http://www.wendyusuallywanders.wordpress.com

14} ALIENS SPOTTED NEAR BEAVER CREEK by Susan http://beavercreekalien.com

15} Madre With RA by Madre http://www.madrewithra.wordpress.com

About this award: As acceptance of this award the following criteria should be met:

1} Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link.

2} Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

3} Then list those 15 with their names/ blog names and a link to their sites.

4} Then go to each of them at their blog and post that you have given them a special gift and post a link back to your site.

So again thank you for your blogs and don’t forget to post your award on your site….I am…or I am going to keep trying until I make it work….at one time I think I knew…..yes….I have lost it some where here in the fog and when I find my brain I will get it done before I lose it again……gentle joy until our paths cross again!…….. Lila

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